He has a box of his own toys at our house, blocks that the big kids set up for him so he can knock them down. Teething rings. An odd looking cup that he carries around and puts a play spoon into.

Usually it is just he and I in the afternoons his mama is at work, his cousin sleeps and his other cousins at school. I watch him, look into the toy box, stare at the colors that he has seen a hundred times before. No new toys today…but to him they are all still new.ย  He plays. He explores. Then he squeals in delight when his mama comes through the door…she’s only been gone an hour or two but she’s his best friend and all he knows is to lay his head on her shoulder and give her wet kisses. He adds such sweetness to his family.

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  • jeanette Krzyzek - He’s getting to be such a big boy! I can’t believe that! It seems like yesterday you were blogging your sister’s pregnancy! He’s absolutely adorable! :)ReplyCancel

We don’t get snow here in Sacramento, but we are famous for the fog. Yesterday it settled deep and didn’t burn off until almost noon. A first for me, photographing fog, I grabbed my camera and 50mm lens, drove down to the park by our house and proceeded to step in the thick fog…and soaking grass. My Chucks and long jeans didn’t thank me.

Some days these photos could be a metaphor for the deep fog that may settle on you or I.ย  All the things we need to do or to be. But the wonderful thing is that the fog burns off, maybe later than we want, maybe later than normal…but it always burns off.

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  • Maria Chhon - Such a great photo, and yes, it has been so foggy lately in Sacramento. Love the pic!ReplyCancel

  • Renee - So enchanting. I love itReplyCancel

Here’s a real thought that I have been mulling over lately. Stick with me ok?

Why do we become disenchanted with who we are? Why don’t we ever get ENchanted with who we are? That might be a bold way to start this post, but hey…that’s how I roll (yes..I did just say “that’s how I roll”).

I received a really nice email just a couple days ago. A fellow mom wrote to me that us as stay at home moms, “…find it hard not to look around and compare ourselves with others and get down on ourselves.” Yes…I agree…100% yes.

Then my husband and I were chatting about him starting a blog…he voiced that he didn’t think he had anything to say. Um…that is very very wrong. But honestly, that is how I feel most of the time. I can’t wait to read his first blog post and I know he reads every single one of mine.

Just being honest here…I don’t feel I have much to say…much to give or much to display. I think that is why I go long stretches without blogging, not because I’m busy, but because I don’t feel what I have to say is worth anything to write about.

You have to realize, I am a God-fearing-believing-Bible-toting woman. If there was anyone who shouldn’t struggle about her self worth it should be me. The girl with a good childhood, didn’t (really) have a rebellious streak and has a close relationship with God.

And yet. I. still. do.

and you do too.

My goodness we have so much to say, so much to give and so much to write about. Why is it so hard sometimes? Because of fear. Fear that no one will read…fear that many people will read. Fear that we will get burned or criticized for who we are. Fear that we will be real but others will think we are not.

I want to become disenchanted with a life of self doubt. And become enchanted with a life grounded on God and on what He thinks of me and no one else.

I want Him to remove the film that lays thick on my eyes and skin. The film that tries to protect me from hurt and scars, but only leaves disease behind. The film that was put there last year by individuals who didn’t understand the love of God. The film that I put on myself every day when I say I have nothing to give. I want to be made whole and love what I do and do what I love.

Join me.

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  • Linda Mae Churchill - I so love reading your blog. You have beautiful photos and inspiring words. Let God use you to encourage others, especially those you are not in direct contact with. God has given you this desire to write and so just do it! Let the words flow through you whatever they might be. Be honest and people will continue to read, be awestruck and inspired. Keep it up Amy. I will continue reading. <3ReplyCancel

  • Juanita - Amy, I SO look forward to each and every one of your posts! You are a fantastic friend, a wonderful example and I value your honesty. How many of us feel exactly this way and yet are afraid to voice it…because of how we will be perceived…because we might shatter an image that we work so hard to create…because…well there are a thousand reasons. I am working on this myself and I never would have thought this was a struggle for you and yet that gives me hope! We have so much to be thankful for and we have a hope, that so many don’t have, but the truth is, this is a daily struggle. If only we could see ourselves as He truly sees us, as an amazing work of art, that He put thought into and lovingly created. I truly am praying for that revelation, not just as head knowledge, but to REALLY know it in my heart…I will pray it for you too. Love you friend!ReplyCancel

  • Sarah - You have so much to give, so much to say! And so do I! I love this post Amy, well done!!! <3 you!!!ReplyCancel

  • Amy - Thank you for responding!! I love hearing your hearts as well. I think it is even more so for stay at home moms. Bind together….follow the Lord’s leading…and obey when He says to be real. That is what my goal is right now.ReplyCancel